tuneinturnon | (no subject)

To deviate from the sex theme: I'm more miserable now than I was a year ago and it just gets worse daily. My 'friends' & family say they're surprised it took this long. I thought things would work our and I was wrong and short-sighted as usual. My "best friend" suggested I live alone so despite all the other stress I won't have the whe "my life pays for your life@ disparity bugging me, but he's a man who has never had a romantic partnership. Without J I'd be more miserable & lonely than I am now, especially because I'd have to cook & take sole care of the dog again. I think the good outweighs the bad most days. This was a pretty disappointing weekend personally, though.

J at least managed to stay awake long enough to console me until I stopped crying because it just doesn't seem worth the effort, & now he's snoring away. I will be soon too - I took Ambien along with extra Klonopin to deal with extra anxiety tomorrow. (J and the New Girl have a date while I'm at work.) so my eyes are barely open. I bid you adieu.